I keep listening to the Ex-Factor and wondering when things are going to get easier. Because no matter what happens, it just isn't going to work. I never really thought that I would be put in this situation. I feel like one of those after school specials. How can you love somebody and just say goodbye to them? This is how. I now have sympathy for my past relationships, because if those people felt like I'm feeling now, damn! I guess I need to thank God that I came to this realization. Need to move forward and don't look back. There's nothing behind me but pain. Nobody wants to be lonely. I don't think any of us wakes up in the morning and says you know what, today I'm just going to be the loneliest person in the world. But I do think some of us wake up and say you know what, I just need time and space. That's how I woke up this morning. Needing and wanting to be alone, but cursing myself for feeling some sort of dread. Something is telling me to walk away from this one. Cut my losses and move on. My inner voice is always right and whenever I don't listen to it, I regret it. I have a feeling something better is right around the corner.