I can only be me. I can't be what u want me to be. I can only be what I'm born to be. Which is me. I can't change me for you. I can only change me for me. I never was impressed by the things that most women were impressed with... Thinks like clothes, and perfumes and jewelry and make-up never really did it for me. I was never excited by it...When I was a kid if you bought me some fabric, I was happy... Unfortunately I'm not a girly girl... And upon reflection, I'm guessing that most men are turned off by that... I guess so... I like things like cars and sewing machines. Clothes are a necessity for me. I make them, my own clothes are pointless. I dress for comfort, not for style... Style is something that naturally occurs in my mind, but to be honest, it's not what motivates my creativity. My ideal job is staying home in my P.J's and making clothes all day long... I'd much rather be in a pair of comfortable jeans, then in a 3 piece suit. I don't think that's bad... I think if someone loves me then they love me regardless of how I dress, or regardless if my hair is curly or straight. Maybe I've been alone for all this time cause people just aren't on my level. I see love and relationships as mental. But I also know that a relationship centers around physical attraction. And if you aren't attracted to me, that's cool. I'm sure there's somebody out there for you. If you are in love with my mind like you say you are then my physical appearance should be last on the totem pole. But recently it's became the first. I thought we were beyond that. I guess I was wrong...