My son is a video game junkie... He plays them at home, in the car, on the computer... Which leads me to believe that in about a year he'll be internet savvy... And while I rejoice that he's getting smarter every day, I kind of regret what technology has done to our children... No more play time. No more running around and playing outside, all of our kids want to eat McDonalds and play video games in their room. I must admit that being a single mother is tough because you have to work... Yeah it would've been nice if I was a stay at home mom doing laundry and baking cookies, but ummmm didn't work out that way. It would've also been nice if my son really had some siblings. His father has a daughter but my son doesn't really know her. She's about 2. And it's pretty much a done deal with me, the only brothers and sisters he'll have is step ones...

It's kind of sad because when I think of just how much my sister has done for me, I know I will regret not having more kids. My sister is my rock and I don't know what I would've done without her. My son won't have a rock besides me... And when I get too old, he'll be the only one to take care of me and my sister...That's a heavy burden on him and his future family. All too often I see young single mothers turn into old single mothers. And no that's not what I wanted, but I do see that happening for me. My life is my son and my personal life, well that's my son too. Not too many men want to step up to the plate and take care of another man's child. And a ready made family is too much for some men. Even older men... So it's just me and the man... And regardless of all my good intentions, it's just gonna be us for a long time... I guess I'm use to it by now, but I won't lie... It still hurts...