A hard lesson that I learned is that time changes everything. Your body, your mind, your spirit. And so gone is the age of innocence and perfection. What I wouldn't do to have some things back, but reality can be a bitch. Some things will never be the same. I wonder do I even deserve happiness. For so long I only thought of me and me only...Is it fair that now when I'm ready to settle down that it just happen...On one hand I want so desperately to change things, but on the other hand I feel like people should accept you for what you are... While acceptance and tolerance are one thing, being happy with something is another. Have I accepted what my life has become, yes....Am I happy with it, no... I wanted so much more then this...I wanted it all...And now it seems like I got nothing... Nothing of what I dreamed of, nothing of what I hoped for, nothing of what I've worked for. Nothing of what I deserve, nothing of what is due to me...Nothing...