I'm sitting here drinking the cup of coffee that I thought I didn't need this morning. Turns out I was wrong. Therefore, I'm drinking coffee in the afternoon. I'm not the biggest fan of coffee. I drink it because sometimes I'm so tired, it's the only thing that gets me through a long day.

For some reason, today is one of those long days. Don't ask me why... I guess maybe because I got sleepy way too soon. And over this hot cup of coffee, I began to have some realizations. No matter how hard you try, you have no choice but to deal with what life has given you. You have to deal with your choices and the things that came about because of those choices. We all make mistakes, and guess what, hind sight is always 20/20. Maybe now I can move on with some things that have really been bothering me. Life is what it is. You cannot change the past so it's no use to say shoulda coulda woulda. This isn't a magic carpet ride and this isn't "It's a Wonderful Life"... You're not going to be able to see life without you in it. Being an adult is realizing your limitations and also taking responsibility for your actions. Just because you're 18 doesn't mean you are capable of that. It took me a long time to come to the conclusion that my life is what I make it to be. I can only live my life, no one else's. And in the long run, I'm the one that's accountable for my life.

I've tried to be a good person, maybe I've been to good of a person. Maybe I've been naive. Now I'm seeing that the norm doesn't have to be your life. I'm happy with the friends I have. I'm happy with my apartment (well sometimes), I'm happy with my car, and the direction my career is moving. I'm tired of measuring my success by other people's standards. Everyone has a different definition of success. And no matter what happens in my life time, I know that I'm a success.