Have you ever wanted something so bad that you when you get it, you don't know what to do with it? Then you get angry because it doesn't act the way you expect it to act? A new relationship is a new puppy... When you first get it, you walk it all the time, pay a lot of attention to it, love it and play with it... But after a while, the novelty wears off and it's just your dog. After a while you kind of ignore it... But that puppy stays loyal to you even though you don't treat it like you should or the way you did. Common sense would tell the dog to leave and find itself a new and better owner. But you don't bite the hand that feeds you. Cause even though you may treat the dog a little worse then before, you still feed it and you still take care of it...

Common sense tells me to part with this relationship because I'm being treated like that puppy. Not really paid too much attention to. But I won't leave because I love my owner. People have a tendency to treat the ones they love the worst. I wonder why. Seems like if I want to stay in this relationship, I need to find myself and find out what I really expect and want out of this relationship. Am I being unrealistic? Am I just wasting my time? Am I setting myself up for disappointment? NO male in my life has ever really treated me right... The only one is my son. And he's not grown yet. Maybe I should just move on and look for completion within myself.