On Ebay... I'm on ebay right now trying to find a new sewing table. Not the old fashion kind that has the machine in the table, but the new kind that folds up and disappears and all that good stuff. I want to find the best way to use and maximize my limited space. A friend of mine reminded me today that I just haven't been sewing anything lately. Yes folks, it's official...I'm being real damn lazy. Shoot me...Happens to the best of us. Lately, I just haven't been motivated. I'm still trying my best to decipher my world and my place in everyone else's.

I really don't know why to vent about today. I know that lately life has been on my mind. We all get caught up so much in our own lives and our own agenda that sometimes we often become selfish. I think everyone is guilty of it. Their aren't too many selfless people left on this Earth. I really thought long and hard today about my feelings and how I truly feel about certain people. I also thought about motivation and why I do what I do for certain people. And I can truly say that my intentions were positive, but some of them might have gotten lost along the way. Sometimes you get so use to a situation that you lose track of what exactly you were doing with yourself before that situation occured. And before you know it, you would do anything not for that situation to end. I guess I'm guilty of not letting go. I still find it hard to let it go. But I really need to because I don't think this is for me any longer. Or maybe it never was.