I keep thinking that writing in this blog is going to make me feel better... But in all actuality, it's not doing anything but recording my pain. I don't think my life is supposed to be this complicated. Am I making it this way? Do I just need to move on with things and just cut my losses? For the past few days I've known what I gotta do, but well, I just can't bring myself to do it. As much as I want to be in love, it never really brings me pleasure. Just a lot of pain. Well at least that's what I feel, can't speak for anyone else. Pain because life is complicated with lots and lots of complicated issues. How can one person make you so happy, but so sad at the same time? My heart is heavy and there is nothing you can take for that. And sometimes I feel like if I do let things go, my heart will still be heavy, so what's the point? I just don't know what to do...