Monday, June 26, 2006

I'm sitting here listening to Marvin and once again contemplating life and my place in it. Coming to the realization that once again one is the magic number. But I'm not just listening to Marvin, I'm listening to the Let's Get It On Album... Which happens to be my favorite Marvin Gaye album. My moms had it on vinyl... Yeah I said Vinyl, so what... Anyhow, I use to listen to it over and over again... Something about Marvin's voice and the cracking of a record player is special... And yeah the cd is clear as a bell, but I miss that cracking... Cracking of Vinyl... and how once the record was over, you had to turn it over... I'm thinking how many times did I fall alseep to Marvin... and how many times did I cry to Marvin... The memories of that album and all those emotions can be somewhat overwhelming... But I felt like I had to listen to Marvin at this very moment... I guess I needed the nostalgia...

And yeah I was born in 1972 but I've been listening to old school since I was a little girl. Always yearning to hear artists that were around since before I was born. I never knew why I had such an old soul... And to this day I don't know why a 13 year old related to the "Let's Get in on" Album. But Marvin had a tendency to pour so much raw emotion into an album. You could feel exactly what he was feeling... Maybe that's why I love this album so much... It has it's ups and it's downs. Just like my life. All my life I've been perplexed, emotional, passionate and driven. And yet have I've found someone that complimented me in that aspect. And when I do, they disappear so fast, I don't even get the chance to love them. I wonder...I'm thinking maybe I haven't met my soulmate. Or maybe I have and I just don't know it yet... When you are young you think love can conquer all. But reality teaches us that love is complicated and sometimes it's just not enough. And sometimes the person you want is not the person you need...

Once again... I guess I'm looking in the wrong direction.

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jeri,

You have to look at your experiences in life as lessons. And with lessons you either learn from them or you repeat them over and over and over again. It is up to you to decide how you will apply the lessons that you learn in life. I can tell that from your comments that you are looking for the ultimate love. Do you realize that your ultimate love should be the love that you have for yourself. When you love yourself in the way that you expect others to love you, you can not go wrong in your quest for finding true love. You will not go wrong because number one, you will not settle for no man's foolishness.

So in short, you know how you want to be loved, so start by loving you yourself in that way. Listen to Whitney Houston's song, The Greatest Love of All, that song says everything that I am trying to tell you.

God Bless you my beautiful black sister and look to him for the guidance you need.

From an Associate

4:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jeri,

You have to look at your experiences in life as lessons. And with lessons you either learn from them or you repeat them over and over and over again. It is up to you to decide how you will apply the lessons that you learn in life. I can tell that from your comments that you are looking for the ultimate love. Do you realize that your ultimate love should be the love that you have for yourself. When you love yourself in the way that you expect others to love you, you can not go wrong in your quest for finding true love. You will not go wrong because number one, you will not settle for no man's foolishness.

So in short, you know how you want to be loved, so start by loving you yourself in that way. Listen to Whitney Houston's song, The Greatest Love of All, that song says everything that I am trying to tell you.

God Bless you my beautiful black sister and look to him for the guidance you need.

From an Associate

4:03 PM

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