I'm at work, as per usual, listening to Launch.com. Yeah I listen to videos at work... Sue me... So I'm listening to this old Usher Video- Think of You... That's about the time where Usher was Puffy's protege.' The video was produced in 1995... Funny how things change so fast... See sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day is the videos, internet stations and various CD's. See, I'm just not happy working the 9 to 5. And yes it's only temporary, but sometimes it's so hard to keep the faith. I keep knowing that my day is coming, but it's hard to stay focused. Corporate America isn't for me. I have another calling. I've had it since I can remember. Now just when things are getting so close to being reality, they still seem so very far away. There's gotta be another way. I'm miserable... See now I have a son, a special friend, and a nice house, nice car... Now it's my time to shine...But it seems like my time to shine is not coming fast enough. I keep praying and try to find the faith to make things better. See things aren't bad... I'm so blessed. But I can't lie, working 8 hours a day for someone else can be disheartening. But I can't give up... Creativity is all I know. I just hope that everything works out for me!!! Not knowing the future is killing me, but then again, who really wants to know the future.