After 34 years on this Earth, it still has taken a lot of time for me to realize that certain things in life just aren't meant to be. Yes I'm stubborn. And sometimes so much happpens to you and you go through so much in life, that you automatically assume that certain things must not be meant. Therefore, I have no choice but to believe that... I've never been much of a quitter. And as Donny says, giving up is hard to do... But sometimes, you just gotta know when to exit the show. And some say that a lady should always know when to leave.

So therefore, I must exit stage left. And I know that when I do leave, the show will go on and my departure won't affect it one bit. It just hurts like hell... But what else can I do? For a long time now I've been in denial. I thought just because I felt a certain way, that things had to be the way I wanted. But oh well...

All I can do is keep on... Keep on waking up... Keep on working... Keep on striving... Keep on strugglin... Keep on cryin... Keep on laughin... Keep on livin...

And as long as God keeps waking me up every morning, I feel like I have no choice, but to keep on going...

This dream isn't deferred, this dream is gone...It actually vanished a long time ago... And I've just been holding on to something... What I don't know. Maybe I was holding on to my own ideas...

I do feel stupid because I feel like why couldn't I get it through my brain a long time ago. How many more hints does one person have to give?

Some things for some people just aren't meant to be...I've been saying that for a long time, and as sad as it is... It just is... Reality bites...