I'm feeling ugly today. Don't know why. Something is bothering me and I can't really put my finger on it. I'm just sad. I guess it's just one of those days. Or maybe it's just been one of those weeks. Reality is annoying me. I try to be a good person. Some days I don't know if I'm trying hard enough. Some days I think I'm trying too much.
And some times I feel like if all we have is all these years, then we really don't have anything at all. There's really nothing there. Just a facade of a relationship, or a friendship. And some times when you want something so bad, you don't want to realize that you're never going to get it. It's been a long 5 years. 5 whole years of disappointment, 5 whole years of loneliness, 5 whole years of having no one to depend on or rely on. There's no sense of complaining because the last 5 years are what's ahead of me too. Minute after minute, hour after hour, day after day, month after month, year after year. It's the same thing... Me myself and I...
And some times I feel like if all we have is all these years, then we really don't have anything at all. There's really nothing there. Just a facade of a relationship, or a friendship. And some times when you want something so bad, you don't want to realize that you're never going to get it. It's been a long 5 years. 5 whole years of disappointment, 5 whole years of loneliness, 5 whole years of having no one to depend on or rely on. There's no sense of complaining because the last 5 years are what's ahead of me too. Minute after minute, hour after hour, day after day, month after month, year after year. It's the same thing... Me myself and I...
1 Comments:
i know. i also get those days that feel like theres nothing to live for and that the universe is actively conspiring against you.
i feel sad because of how sad you seem.
but the sun will come up tomorrow.
hang in there.
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