I'm moving tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the change. And this past few months has meant a lot to me. In such a short amount of time, my life has did a 360. And while I'm happy, it can be stressful. Don't get me wrong, I'm so blessed, but sometimes it can be overwhelming because everything kinda happened fast. A friendship blossomed into something beautiful and I started to think of life so differently. I only hope that things continue to go this well. And I'm hoping that all the rain that occured in my life has help to grow flowers.

Life....

You know there are a ton of Hallmark phrases that may describe life. I never really was one to rely on a card company to tell me what life was about. To be honest, I don't know why we were put on this Earth. And while there are magnitudes of books that tell us all kinds of theories, to be honest, no one knows for certain why they are here. They might know how they got here, but not the reasoning behind.

Which brings this blog to a intimate discussion. It's not like you never read one on here, so bear with me. In life most of us are searching for something. Some are searching for money, fame, success, but most are searching for love. Yes I said it, love. It really does make the world go around. When you are younger you believe that you are going to meet Prince Charming, get married and that's it. Life would be so simple after that. But in reality, things are so much different. Yes I feel like I met a prince, but is he Prince Charming? No... He's complicated, can be emotional, and quite rugged. But something about him keeps me in love. And when I realized that yes I was in love, that's when the hard work came into the scenario.

All those people that use to say that marriage and relationships were hard work are right. Don't doubt anything your Granny said about marriage. But back when Granny got married, marriage had different intentions. It was about just as much hard work as it is now, but back then, people had different values. I'm pretty sure that men still cheated and I'm pretty sure that women dealt with it differently then they do now.

I don't know how I feel about fidelity anymore. I'm not a cheater. But I've been cheated on. Yeah it hurts, but that's because I was lied to. Over and over again. All because a man wanted his cake and to eat it too. I never quite had a relationship like the one I have now. I don't think that fact is either good nor bad. It is what it is. Things have gone too far to turn back. The future is so cloudy. I've never been so happy with someone, yet scared at the same time... Many would dismiss this feeling and would rather know their outcome then live in suspense. But I feel like if I push the issue, their won't be one any longer.