There was a purple butterfly and a sassy butterfly in my room last night. They were irritating me, but I got over it. Of course they waited until the last minute to get these outfits made. See, they have to model in a high school competition fashion show tonight and they needed some outfits made. I was up until like 1:30, 2:00 am. Then I have turn around and wake up at 7am in order to make a last minute outfit for one of the other models at their school. So, I'm a little tired this morning. My stomach is bothering me, and well, I'm a bit irritable. Plus to top if off I haven't had any chicken in a while. Can't live without chicken. And because everyone in my house was up, my child decided to stay up with us. He's 5 today. The big 5, whoa! We had a birthday party for him on the 5th and with all the commotion of trying to get to work on time, I forgot to wish him Happy Birthday...What a bad mommy I am. But fortunately, there are 24 hours in a day, and I can wish it to him later.

On the whole ride to work this morning, I was reminded of how I needed back brakes. And upon feeling my rotor with my finger, I knew that my mechanic was gonna tell me something I didn't want to hear. Rotors on an Acura are a nightmare. Something told me to buy a civic or something. But noooooooooo, I had to have something bigger and better. Acura's and Lexus' kill your pockets, but oh well, it's only money. And before some hater decides to make a typical hater comment, I only buy Japanese high end cars, so don't hate. Just like some people only buy Kenneth Cole shoes... It's a preference. You pay more for the shoes, but they last longer. And yes I'm entitled to complain, it's my blogger, get over it.

Anyway, I'm sure things will work out, they always do. Just another problem with another day. Maybe some sleep will do me good.

I was always taught what goes around comes around. I do not know why people do not understand that. You cannot get away with treating folks badly, it always comes back to you. Hello people, it's called karma. When you put out negative energy, you receive negative energy. And while you may appear to prosper, it's only temporary. Something else will fail. Money cannot and will not buy you happiness. It can only make you comfortable. And yeah it would be good if some of us didn't have to struggle, but in the long run, I think I would rather be poor and happy then rich and miserable. Fact is, you can't take it with you people. It can only buy you a nice funeral. Which brings me today's rant. I hate people who perceive kindness as weakness. Simply because I'm a kind person. And I'll be frank, all it ever got me was being treated like shit. But I will not change myself for anyone. Yeah it does hurt when you give your all to someone and all you get back is heartache. But when you look at the situation, all the folks that treated me like shit are worst off. Most of them are miserable. Stuck in no win situations. We all are victims of being selfish. We all have a mean streak. I'm no exception. But generally I'm a good person. And bad things do happen to good people. I think that's because GOD has a way of testing us. I wouldn't appreciate a good man if I had never been hurt. I wouldn't appreciate the raise I get at work, if I didn't work hard for it. I think that in order to appreciate GOD, you have to go through trials in your life. If your life was perfect, you wouldn't appreciate all that GOD has blessed you with. I'm so thankful for the tears, heartaches, and back stabbers. I thank GOD everyday for those people that hate on me. I pray for the strength to deal with my everyday struggles and GOD always gets me through it. I just keep on living and keep on growing. Mentally, creatively, and spiritually. So when you get the time, thank GOD for your enemies, for they have done so much for you. They have made it possible for you to be blessed.

I admire you. I guess that's how we became friends. I admire your drive, your motivation, your hard work. I often find myself thinking about you and thinking how proud I am of you. Some times you make me mad, but it's all love. You probably know of my admiration, but then again, you may not. I hide it a lot. Don't want it be perceived as something else. I'm probably one of your biggest fans. Wow, you have your very own personal cheer leader. I really just want to see you happy. However, I'm limited on how much I can help you. I can't give you 110%. Because for one, I have limited capacity, and two, it probably wouldn't be a good idea. But I think you know where my heart is. Take care of you.

Love Always,

A mystical unrefined shy Black Butterfly!

Some people are good people because of what they do and some people are good at what they do. Let me explain, just by changing words around, you have changed the entire meaning of a sentence. For example, if I donate my time to a homeless shelter, then some may consider me a good person. However, if I play basketball and I'm the highest scorer, then some may say I'm good at what I do. I've learned in life that when you do business, you should separate those definitions when dealing with folks. To be frank, we all want good people in our lives, but a good person cannot benefit me in a business setting if he or she is not good at what she does. How many times have you seen your co-workers fired because they weren't good at what they did? That doesn't mean they weren't good people. Often times we like to give people chances because they are good people. We say well, she's a good person, I don't want to let her go. But in a business setting, you need to say yeah she's a good person, but she's hurting my business.

Friendship and business usually don't mix. Especially if you and a person are so much of friends, that you cannot speak your business mind. I often find that I do eventually become friends with the people I do business with. Primarily because I'm a honest individual, and just because someone is my friend doesn't mean I don't expect to compensate them. Which brings me to the second part of my rant.

If you work hard you should be compensated. Now all of us that may work for ourselves may not get the compensation we deserve. But when you put out effort on behalf of another person, you should be compensated. Bottom line. Friendship or not. Now there's nothing wrong with helping folks out, but when I gotta do for you more or just about as much as I'm doing for me, we need to be talking about dollars and cents here. For example, if I wash your car for you because you asked me to, that's doing you a favor. But if you got me washing your car every Friday, then you need to be paying me. That's simple logic. People with good intentions will still try to take advantage of you. And while they may be good people, you still have to look out for you... Do not sell yourself short people! Get what you deserve.