I'm sitting here listening to My Life... Which in my opinion was one of the most prolific R&B albums ever. In 1995, Puffy was coming into his own and making his mark on the industry. And while Mary has a lot of nice CD's, there will only be My Life... Okay, I just needed to say that... While there's nothing wrong with reminiscing from time to time, when it comes to love, you can't live in the past. If the only reason your relationship is working is because of all the years you had together, then it's really not working. Love grows... And that's one thing as women they we must begin to understand. Women are loyal creatures by nature. Have you ever wondered why in the animal kingdom that most of the hunters are female, and female dogs are the most protective? That's because a woman or a female will kill for the one she loves. And she will also quickly hurt the one that betrays her. Men have to grow into love. They just don't wake up one day and be like damn I'm in love... As a woman I find myself impatient with love... I often think that just because I love a man that he has to love me the same way I love him. Men express love a lot differently. I read today that thought of marriage and commitment can be compared to eating the same type of sandwich everyday. And while having sex with your partner can't really be compared to eating a turkey sandwich, I do see where one could get bored of eating Turkey on Wheat every single day of their life. The author then went on to say that men who have trouble making commitments are too hungry and the sandwich they have at home just isn't going to hit the spot. I think that was a great comparison.

As far as me and my relationship, well I don't know what to make out of it. Let's just say I eat Turkey on Wheat all the time... But only by choice. I don't have to eat it... It's just my favorite!!!

I'm sitting here listening to Marvin and once again contemplating life and my place in it. Coming to the realization that once again one is the magic number. But I'm not just listening to Marvin, I'm listening to the Let's Get It On Album... Which happens to be my favorite Marvin Gaye album. My moms had it on vinyl... Yeah I said Vinyl, so what... Anyhow, I use to listen to it over and over again... Something about Marvin's voice and the cracking of a record player is special... And yeah the cd is clear as a bell, but I miss that cracking... Cracking of Vinyl... and how once the record was over, you had to turn it over... I'm thinking how many times did I fall alseep to Marvin... and how many times did I cry to Marvin... The memories of that album and all those emotions can be somewhat overwhelming... But I felt like I had to listen to Marvin at this very moment... I guess I needed the nostalgia...

And yeah I was born in 1972 but I've been listening to old school since I was a little girl. Always yearning to hear artists that were around since before I was born. I never knew why I had such an old soul... And to this day I don't know why a 13 year old related to the "Let's Get in on" Album. But Marvin had a tendency to pour so much raw emotion into an album. You could feel exactly what he was feeling... Maybe that's why I love this album so much... It has it's ups and it's downs. Just like my life. All my life I've been perplexed, emotional, passionate and driven. And yet have I've found someone that complimented me in that aspect. And when I do, they disappear so fast, I don't even get the chance to love them. I wonder...I'm thinking maybe I haven't met my soulmate. Or maybe I have and I just don't know it yet... When you are young you think love can conquer all. But reality teaches us that love is complicated and sometimes it's just not enough. And sometimes the person you want is not the person you need...

Once again... I guess I'm looking in the wrong direction.