They say that Death always happens in threes. I have had one so far, I can only wait for the other two. Some things are inevitable. I speak of death often on this blog. It troubles me as a human being. Maybe one day I'll accept it. I was hoping that it would be far away but sometimes it comes soooooo close to home that you can't but help question your own mortality.

I had a long talk with a friend of mine yesterday. And he really made me question how I thought about things. How I thought about life, relationships, and friendships. It was a very interesting conversation. He told me to think outside of the box. And I was reminded yesterday just how little time we have on this earth. And since God woke me up this morning, I have no choice but to praise him. Every day on this earth is a blessing. Even the bad ones.

Am I foolish to seek out what I already have? Am I caught up in what everybody else thinks I should have? Am I comparing myself to people that have no bearing on my life?

We grow up in life with so many ideals and pre-set values. But in the scheme of things, life is so much more complicated. Our culture and society tries to implement all kinds of beliefs on us. But what do we really feel in our hearts? And when you think about that, then all pre-conceived notions go out the window. In the end, you love who you love. You enjoy who you enjoy. You respect and comfort those that are close to you. Life on the larger scale is so much bigger then what people say or do. It's bigger then titles and positions. It's bigger then the internet and myspace. Life is real. Feelings are real. The love we make with one another is real. Everything else is intangible. Life is short yall.... Love each other.

I wrote about this on my myspace blog yesterday and I guess I'm continuing the discussion. The post was called stick a fork in me, I'm done...
Done with conversation and one with dreaming and done with being friends and done with hoping and wishing... Just done...

I can't take it anymore. And I figure the less we talk, the less likely we will have any drama. So I really don't have much to say anymore. I didn't want it to come to this, but I really have no choice.

It seems like everything that happens wrong in your life is my fault, so therefore, maybe I need to remove myself from your life. (As much as I can) To be honest, I really don't even want to see you anymore, but I have no choice in that matter.

I feel foolish cause I've been holding on to something for so long that I just knew it was meant to be. But I was wrong. I've got to let you go for the sake of my sanity and our friendship.