Let U Go???

What?? You want me to let you go? I can't let you go? I can let certain notions go. Certain dreams or fantasies... Certain wishes and hopes... But I can't let you go...Let my sun and moon go? I know you don't want to hurt me... But hell it's so beyond that right now...I don't know what this relationship/friendship has turned to... But it went way beyond the comprehendable a long time ago... And now you want me to let it go? Like it's that easy... Like I can say you don't stir me anymore... Like I just can forget about all we went through and all we shared... Like I can just pretend that I don't think of you in every fiber of my being...Like I can pretend that lying in your arms doesn't feel like the perfect dream...Like I can meet someone else and they affect me the way you do... Like I can just open my heart and my world to someone else and they replace you... I can't believe that you want me to let my best friend go... I can't believe that you want me to let the love of my life go... I can't believe that you want me to let my protector go...

Some things in life I just can't do... I can't be something I'm not... And I can't let go the one person that has always and consistently gotten under my skin and made me give a fuck... Even when I didn't want to... I can't do it... Primarily because I will never forgive myself if you didn't come back to me...

I'm sick this weekend. Dealing with a cold like situation. My co-worker infected me. I knew I was gonna get sick... So I'm really pissed...And in between the constant fever and the sore throat, I'm miserable. Didn't really eat much. Throat was hurting and chicken noodle soup wasn't going to do it. So I'm trying to stay out the bed because I'm sick of being in it. All weekend I'm stuck in the bed and realizing that folks just don't give a damn! Which really shouldn't surprise me. I guess it's more or less of an interesting observation. So I'm outside hanging some towels on the clothes line... Yeah that's right I said it clothes line. Never lived in a house that had a clothes line before. No... I think I'm lying. I once lived in a duplex where there was a clothes line out back... but I never used it. Anyhow...My roommate said to me that we should get the pulleys... But those are for the clothes lines that hang in between buildings. That's so you can pull the laundry to you. I'm not that lazy, I can walk around and put the laundry up. I don't know what made me write about that. Maybe because all these years have gone by and folks still use clothes lines. You watch those movies of the future and they say that 2006/2007 is supposed to be this far out foreign future world. Whatever! Some things just don't change. And to be honest 2007 is a lot like 1977. Besides the occasional cell phone or computer. Not much has really changed. I didn't have a cell phone growing up and my parents knew exactly where I was... Go figure... We didn't have a computer either, and still I managed to get good grades. It's called the Library people... Now it's 2007 and folks swear they can't live without their cell phone or their computer, or their IPOD... Hmmm.... I wonder what they did when they were growing up...I suspect they were like the rest of us... They were children...