"Rejection is sometimes God's Protection"

Or better yet, his intervention. I got that quote from Donny Green's myspace page. I wish I know who said it, maybe Don did. But anyway, I was watching Joyce Meyers this morning and she had a similar message. (I'm not one for Christian Ministry TV shows, but I enjoy Joyce Meyers a great deal)

In her message she basically explained that what you have in store for you may not be what God has in store for you and if you hold strong and continue to act as a Christian, God will take care of you in the end. What you think is rejection may not be what it seems. It maybe God just doesn't have that plan ahead for you. You have to recognize it for what it is instead of what you imagine it to be.

She told a story of a Christian man that put his faith and hopes into receiving this $500000 contract. His pastor told him that he may not get the contract and to not rely so heavily upon it. But he just knew he was going to get it. Long story made short, he didn't receive the contract. But instead of getting angry his pastor advised him to go to the business and tell them he understood. He told the man to also offer his services because maybe his company could still be of some assistance on another task. The man did just that and the company holder said he needed some assistance in installing a boiler. The man agreed and because he did such a good job he actually winded up receiving an even larger contract then he originally tried out for.

So as you can see... If he would've let his disappointment get him down, he would have never been humble enough to receive his REAL BLESSING! God will bless you but you have to realize that everything is not for everybody. Your path may not be the path you think it is. You have to know that disappointment and rejection are a part of life. But if you have faith you will know that something bigger and better is coming your way.

Have you ever lost a job or gotten fired from a job and just didn't understand why God would put you through a hardship like that? In retrospect, wasn't you getting fired the best thing that could've happen to you? For now you are happy!!! Just remember that strife is almost always a blessing in disguise.

With that said, have a good day people!

When you look for something you always find it!

Me and my bestfriend were having this discussion yesterday. As a woman I'm nosey! Okay I admitted it Suga! But when it comes to relationships, how can I really say that you are wrong, when I took the time to go out of my way and look! And look for no reason.

So I guess that goes to say don't look for something unless you are truly prepared to find it! And like the saying goes, believe half of what you see and none of what you hear.

I know females that make it their place to say just what they think "you need to hear." But real talk, I really don't believe in that because I'm not going to my man with heresay. Now eventhough I have been guilty of this in the past, I refuse to approach my man about something another female said. Especially one that wants my man or wanted him at one point in time. Females know how to play two ends against the middle. Ladies do not listen to your man's ex-girl, ex-lover, ex-booty call, etc... I'm not saying anybody is a liar, but you need to judge your man by his actions upon YOU!

Don't answer his phone unless he asks you to, don't pull his cell phone record and ask him about calls. Don't check his voicemail. That's disrespect. Now if you married, that's one thing, but if you all are girlfriend and boyfriend, don't do this to your relationship. PLEASE! Don't approach him about anything you found out via snooping! UNLESS you are prepared to end the relationship right then and there and you are giving your reasons why you don't want to deal with him anymore. Otherwise he will totally lose trust in you.

Now I'm sorry if you think I'm stupid for this Suga! But real talk... I listen to advice from women that have been married for decades, not little girls and women that aren't even close to being in a permanent relationship.

You gotta trust your man and he has to know that he can trust you. Because in the end, you are all he has and he is all you have. And if you gonna make it work... You gotta hold on tight! Cause people, male and female, want to see you fail.

Ahhhh the sound of Air Guns in the morning!

Nah, not a real gun, you know air guns, what you hear in a garage or mechanic shop. Now back to the story.

My dad was always an early riser. He demanded everyone in the house be up by 8 or so and fully dressed. And for the life of me or my sister we never could comprehend why my dad would wake us up early on a non-school day. See my dad was from a different era. My grandfather was a carpenter and well he was always up early. I guess that rubbed off on my dad.

When I was little, by trade, my dad was a Pharmacist Technician, but by hustle he was an Auto Mechanic. By Hustle, well if you don't know what that means, that's a different blog. Hit me later if you don't understand. Back to the subject at hand. The only way to get side jobs done was in the driveway and well sometimes you would wake up to the sound of the compressor and or the sound of an air gun. And I did loathe the sound when I was little, but now well... It's refreshing to hear it. Especially in the morning.

I hear it every morning as I go to McDonalds. There's a tire shop right across the street. And I'm sitting in that drive thru and all I hear are the air machines turning on tire bolts. And I start to smile to myself. Funny how little things can bring about a sense of nostalgia.

That sound symbolizes work to me. Hard Work. And it will always make me smile. I can't help it. My dad raised a car junkie. What else could I turn out to be? Hell I was changing starters at 6 years old. Long story, that's another blog. But how bout my fingers were just the right size.

My dad taught me to never be afraid of working. It was good for the soul and mind.
And I never was. I just want to work for me.

Where Do I want to be?

Man oh man... First and foremost it's 2007 yall. Can you believe that? Man it just seems like last year that my son was born. Now he'll be 8. Geesh. Where does the time go?

It's time for me to come clean because lately I've been realizing some things about me that I just do not like. Because of past relationships, blah blah blah, I've developed some insecurities. Maybe it has something to do with the bad relationship I had with my father when I was growing up, but I feel like I always gotta be up under somebody to feel like I'm loved... Hmmmm??? And I got this tendency to make people need me cause I don't want them to go no where. Damn I finally admitted it.

Deep down inside I'm scared that the people who love me will leave me. And why not they always do. It's like I'm postponing the inevitable. I guess in the end, I can only be me and even though I don't really want to let go, maybe that's what I gotta do.

It's just gonna hurt cause for real, I don't want to. But this ain't healthy. I need somebody that loves me for me! And I guess I just have to be alone until that happens.

A lot on my mind...

As per usual. My best friend said I think too much and I over analyze everything too much. But what does he know he smokes too much weed...LOL! Nah, but real talk, maybe he's right. I have a tendency to stress about things for no damn reason! Wow! In retrospect, I guess it's not healthy. It's something that drives all my boyfriends crazy and maybe that's why me and relationships just don't get along.

I sit and think about every damn thing. Every word, every uttering, every kiss, every phone conversation... Oh Damn! I've tried to relax but sometimes I get soooo angry that I just want to scream. And then I take out all that frustration at it's source. What's a girl to do?

If I drank regularly I would be an alcholic and one of those sick bitches on "Intervention". Oh hell no! They not taking my son from me, he's all I have! Besides the occasional blunt, I'm not much of a substance abuser. I can't use dope, I hate being down for too long... And I could never use coke, I hate being hyper. This whole conversation came about because I can't use anything to relax me. All I can do is take Excedrin Pm and go to sleep. Which isn't always the best idea, I hate dreaming.

So I guess I will forever be up tight and over analyzing everything. That is until I find the answer. But wait, what was the question??