Tender, loving, considerate, passionate, peaceful, intimate, relaxed...I didn't want it to end...

I'm still ranting about the BET thing. I hate the fact that it isn't on when I'm on my way to work. Now I ranted on this before, but I'm speaking on it once again. It's so irritable that I have to watch rock videos in the morning. I hate MTV, MTV2 and VH1... But the radio just doesn't wake me up in the morning. Why can't BET be on in the early morning? Why they gotta be typical black folks and start everything at 10am. What? Do they think we don't get up early? That's just ignorant. I want to watch BLACK videos in the morning. I need some hip-hop, or some R&B to wake me up... I'll even take Gospel. But this punk rock, heavy metal, rock-rap stuff isn't gonna do it... It just gives me a headache. How unfortunate. How can folks listen to that stuff all day? I need soul in my life.

There was an asian butterfly and a pink butterfly asleep on my couch this morning. One of them was there to get away and the other one was there, well because she's always there. Well at least temporarily. EVOCATIVE! is and always has been about family. We stopped looking at each other as business associates and started looking at each other as friends and family. I guess that does have it's benefits, but usually, it can be a nuisance. Particularly because folks get too comfortable. However, we do have a lot of love for each other. Birthdays and holidays are always spent with each other, and we never stray from each other too long. Of course we fight, what family doesn't. And while we have mounds of fun, we still manage to get work done. Don't ask me how. I've found that life can be so difficult without friends. Life is never easy and always a challenge. I have somehow become a teacher, mentor, big sister, mother and God Mother out of this whole experience. And even if there wasn't EVOCATIVE! my family would still be my family. Life and success is definitely what you make it. Take a moment to appreciate your friends and family today. Some folks aren't as lucky as you.

Am I working hard enough? Have I become lazy, or am I just tired? What happened to the drive, motivation and energy? Maybe I've become complacent in my day to day routine. Have I stopped grinding because it appears as though it was getting me no where. Or was it getting me some where and I didn't recognize...Success is what you make it. And while you may think no one notices you, or that your talent goes untapped, there is a small audience some where. Watching you grow, or watching you fail... Which one will it be for me?

I don't like my car...

What else is new? There are plenty of folks with the same problem. The car runs well, but it's a coupe. I really don't know why I bought it. Well maybe I do. When I bought it, I had another car. I wanted a coupe as a second car. I figured hey I never had a coupe, it should be fun. Well... times got hard and I had to sell my Lexus. Long story, different blog. Now I'm stuck with this Acura. And I can't get out of it because I have some negative equity in my loan. Which is something I hate. Plus, it's getting old. It's a 99 and I got like 85K miles on it. And getting a timing belt changed in an Acura is a pain in the ass. So, I'm thinking next year, this car is gone... I'm waiting until I get my taxes back... And I learned a valuable lesson, never again will I buy a 2 door car... Well not as my primary car... I'm looking to buy a Lexus GS300. Prior to 98, I don't like the new ones...Only problem, they are terrible in the snow. Every Lexus except the ES is rear wheel drive, that's why they come with traction control. I might wait until Spring to get that GS... Who knows... I'll save up some money. I guess it's back to Platinum Motors for my 5th car...