I was supposed to be mad at you. And then you hugged me and well that was all she wrote... I really didn't have a reason to be mad. I just was. Most likely because I was frustrated, but we all get that way sometimes. I guess you called me because you didn't want me to be angry. Or at least that's what I'm assuming. For the record, I'm not mad anymore. Just confused...

Yeah, I miss you...
Don't know why... We don't talk, well only from time to time. I don't know what happened, here one day gone the next. And all too often, that same thing happens over and over again. My life is filled with disappearing acts. And yes, I do wonder if it's me... Or is it that I don't encounter those men that are interested in a long term relationship. Everyone just wants a friend. I don't mind being a friend, but men don't know the boundaries of that word. Well at least the men I know.

Today is November 8th and this Monday is definately different. It's the first Monday in a long time where I didn't come back to work without "110603" on my mind. The show was wonderful and I enjoyed every aspect of it. It was low stress and a great time! All my models are growing up and all of a sudden I feel like a proud momma on graduation day.... Awwww! It was nice to see some of the old faces that I enjoy so much. And on Saturday I realized just how important my extended family is. They all worked so hard to help my dream become a reality. And even when I wanted to give up, they wouldn't. Everything worked out so well. So today I say thanks to all my "family." And I also say I love you for being you. Until next time..."The mystical unrefined shy Black Butterfly."