Actually I had a nice Valentine's Day. I was really shocked. I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. On another note... it's officially about to be busy for me and I really don't know how to approach that situation. Simply because I haven't been busy in a real long time. I guess I've been lazy. Well I know I have been lazy.

I'm starting to get me back, but it's a long time coming. I still really haven't been in the mood to sew. But I need to get in the mood cause I got a lot of stuff to do.

But guess what yall? I'm really tired today and I really don't feel like writing... (yeah I know it's hard to believe)... Have a good weekend people! I'm out...

Last night was rough... It was one of the roughest nights I had in a long time. Just couldn't sleep and I prayed for this dark cloud to lift from over my head... It's times like this when I wish I had medication, that's if I believed in it. There is no happy pill... Well at least I don't believe in them. Everybody has a rough night every once in a while. But I had no choice but to wake up this morning and face reality.

Staying in bed isn't going to pay any bills. At least not mine. God never promises us tomorrow, so all we can do is live for today. And some days are better then others. I have no words of encouragement, for today is one of those days. One of those days when you just sigh and wish the day would hurry up and go by.

It's snowing today, and well I live in Maryland, and a little snow is always a big deal here. For those who aren't familiar, Maryland is somewhat considered a southern state. It's just south of the Mason Dixon line, and temperature wise, it's quite mild. We rarely suffer from tropical storms, let alone a hurricane. We did have some mild flooding a few years back, but that was mainly in our downtown area. Baltimore falls in the mouth of the Chesapeake Bay.

Yes today I feel yucky. Tomorrow is Valentines day and that day makes all single people feel like something is wrong with them. Well at least it makes me feel that way. Simply because I thought certain aspects of my life would be different by now. But that's neither here nor there. It is what it is...

Today is a cloudy day. I feel like the dirty kid off of Peanuts... Pig Pen was his name. NO i'm not dirty, but that cloud still follows me...

Firewalls...

When I first came to my job, I had Yahoo Messenger, MSN Messenger, and Outlook. And now... Well let's say the firewalls shut all of that down. We can't even go on myspace... But most jobs can't, so I don't feel bad about that one. Myspace is just an open invitation for your corporate network to catch a virus. So from a business standpoint, I do understand the need for a firewall.

But how many of us really want to do work all day? Many of us would love to talk to our friends and browse on myspace, just for the sake of keeping our sanity. People, such as myself, often have personal issues that sometimes need to get resolved right then and there...

Which brings me to my rant for the day.

Sometimes people just want to be mad. For what I don't know. I believe men have a "time of the month" just like women do. Some days that nikka just wanna be mad. And no matter how hard I try to prove my point, he is always right and I'm always wrong, and he's just mad. You would think after 34 years on this Earth, I would've learned that men are just as if not more irritable then women.

At least women have a chemical reason to be going through emotional changes. So what is the man's excuse? Is it chemical, or does it have something to do with the moon. Maybe they are on a lunar cycle or something. I wonder if it's a full moon. Hold up while I check on that...Well no, it's not a full moon, so I'm at a lost... Maybe it was a full moon when he started to act crazy and he won't be back to normal until the moon is out of cycle... Who knows?

All I know is that I catch the sharp end of the stick everytime and it's enough to drive anyone crazy.

I guess when you get close to people you learn all types of things about them. Some good and some not so good. In the long term I guess you gotta accept bad with the good or accept none at all... I wonder what I'm gonna do?