I wonder if you can feel me when I make love to you in my mind...For thoughts of you constantly flutter in and out of my conscience... And I'm wondering when the day will come that I won't think about you... Or flashbacks of our last encounter won't fill my imagination...And I can't focus on the day... And I find myself longing to see you only to go through this again tomorrow... And for 6 months I've been mesmerized...And for the last 6 years I've been addicted to you... And I'm wondering if and when this roller coaster ride will stop... Sometimes I do want it to stop, but most of the time I don't... I'm having so much fun... and everyone is utterly confused including myself...I don't know what to do... There are so many highs and lows... Having you in my life is like a leap of faith. All I can do is close my eyes and jump...

As Jill says, one is the magic number... And while I'm on this ride of bliss and glee, I must not forget that in the end it's just me... And as somber as that reality is, it is just that reality... No I'm not sad, depressed, or down... It's just that you have to be prepared for the end... For all good things come to an end... No matter how hard you don't want them to... God always has a way of showing you truth and reality... You can't escape that... I cannot forget that despite all we went through and all we continue to go through, that in the end, it's still only me...I try to imagine in my head how my life will go on without you... And I'm also beginning to realize that you can't see your life without me...We have some how become a permanent and lasting fixture in each other's lives... I'll be honest, I don't want it to end... I see us being friends until the day we die...To what capacity is the question... See I never get tired of you... I never met anyone that I just needed to be around... And I'm trying to comprehend this thing, and well I can't. I know it's just me... But I just can't see my life without we...