There's nothing wrong with going to the gym and working out. But I hate to see women with "hard bodies." Women aren't meant to have hard bodies. We are meant to be soft with curves. All too often I see women who "look" like they go to the gym. You know, big muscular arms, broad shoulders, no hips... And somewhere in this society, somebody said that this was necessary somewhere. Weight training for a women is unnecessary and really holds no purpose. Unless she wants to be a professional body builder, or athlete. I'm so sick of looking at these women that look like little men. I believe that women should do stretching, aerobic workouts or cardiovascular workouts to build stamina, increase heart activity and to tone their bodies. I don't believe women need to be in the gym on weight benches. For what??? Hey, I don't know about you, but I like my curves. And yes I want to lose some more weight and tone up, but the female Arnold I don't need to be...That's not sexy to me.

I sewed a little bit last night and I wasn't impressed with what came out of my imagination. But to be honest, it's rare that I ever am impressed. I only like a few of my outfits. It's funny cause folks think that I like everything I make. Not! Most of the time I'm not satisfied. I so enjoy other people's work more then mine. And I took a bite of humble pie a long time ago. Sometimes, I don't know what makes my line so hot to other folks. Maybe is refreshing! Who knows?

I have a headache this morning...
Which is often a daily occurrence. Either too much rest or not enough. Who knows. I went from Tylenol to Excedrin to Advil. And to be honest, the headache just keeps coming back. Which leads me to one conclusion. Stress and exhaustion. I have problems sleeping. Always have. My nights consist of switching back and forth between A&E and Court Tv. Only to stay mesmerized by some forensic or cold case file TV show. Maybe it's what I watch on TV, but in my older age, I cannot bring myself to watch mindless TV. Occasionally I can watch Crossing Jordan, Law & Order of CSI. But no comedy TV, or music channels. I can only take music channels in the morning. When I was growing up, TV was still a novel concept. We listened to the radio more. The radio in my car doesn't even work and that's cool, cause I never listen to it anyway. Somehow, we are all in our own little world. If it wasn't for the news on MSN or Earthlink, I wouldn't know any current events. And to be frank I know very little. Yes we are living in the last days, so I want to ignore reality and just live my life. Maybe that's not responsible, but it's what I'm feeling for the moment.

Actually, my Valentine's Day was nice. I was surprised. I didn't expect anything, so it was nice when I did get something. Life can be so funny! I made some clothes last night, didn't really have that big date. Which is cool... I needed that date with my sewing machine. Gave us a chance to bond. I've been neglecting it lately.

On a different note, I was thinking about my son today. He so reminds me of myself when I was a child. And I hope and pray that he knows how much I love him. And while I do love him a great deal, he can be irritating. But that comes with having a child. I just hope he knows that my irritation is not a permanent thing. However, he has inherited my temper and my moodiness. I guess that serves me right. I remember being a child and never feeling loved. Even though, I know my parents went out of their way to make me happy. I always felt neglected. Maybe because I'm a loner. My son is an only child, and I can relate to him feeling sad at times. I try to spend time with him and assure him that he's my world. He's very special to me. I just hope he knows it.