Jodeci... To be specific- "Lately- Live from MTV Unplugged" That's what I'm listening to real now. To me, this was the song that finally made Jodeci cross over and also paved the way for the spin off of Jodeci- K-CI and JoJo... Don't know what ever happened to Devante and Dalvin. Jodeci was definitely the R&B Group of my generation. There were many copies, but one Jodeci. For those of you that don't know, they only had 3 albums. But they definitely made a mark on R&B music and helped to create the beast we now call P. Diddy...

Just a little bit of trivia for you today. For those that don't know, I'm often called a walking Trivial Pursuit game. I have all these little tid bits of meaningless information in my head. Hmmmm.... Maybe I read too much.

Okay, back to the "Whatever happened to ________" game. Jodeci never really came back out. They kinda disappeared in the 90's somewhere. Never quite made it to the new millennium. But it's not who disappeared that caused this entry, but today I need to talk about "Reappearing Acts..."

What do you do when someone just all of a sudden reappears in your life. Do you take it with a grain of salt, or do you say to yourself, don't go backwards. It often causes me to question the motivation of the person that reappears. Like why did you find me? And what do we do now?? All of this makes me question my decisions about certain things and certain people in my life. Because folks always have a tendency to reappear at the "wrong" time. For me I wouldn't say the time is necessarily wrong, but I'm in a gray area right now. I really don't know what to do or where to go, so the reappearance of certain individuals can complicate my already complicated life.

But the answer will come in due time. All I can do now is sit back and observe.

Frankie Beverly and Maze... You know the drill... That's what I'm listening to... Ironically I'm listening to Joy and Pain... Interesting analogy the song makes... He compares the Joy and Pain of love to Sunshine and Rain. You cannot live without either in your life. You need sunshine and you need rain. Without pain, you cannot function and without Joy you can't live. Hmmmm..... I guess that's why I'm always listening to some old school music... People just don't write songs like that anymore.

Back to the analogy. Not all stories have happy endings. But that doesn't mean it's not a good story. See in the end, we all want a happy ending. I don't know if I'll ever get the happy ending I was hoping to get. Maybe I will but with another story. Are you following me people? And just because I decided to cut one story short doesn't mean I won't ever go on any more "love" journeys. I personally think life is filled with them. For some reason, I was meant to learn a lesson from all this. I wonder what it was... Maybe it's that you can't force someone to love you. Or maybe it's that you can't help everybody out in life. Or maybe it's the old cliche' phrase of leading a horse to water... Who knows...But now it's time for me to embark on another venture. Maybe this one will go better... Maybe it won't. But I did learn that whatever happens, that I need to enjoy the person and stop planning for "our" future.

Moving On...

Yes I can finally say this without crying. And for the first time in a long time saying it feels like the right thing to do. I was so tired of the cloudy days... It was time for some sunshine in my life. I don't know what the future has in store for me. But for the first time in a long time, I finally felt like I was making the right decision. Hopefully I can keep going without any regrets. You will always be my best friend, but now it's time for me to be happy.