It's 4 o clock on a Friday and I can't wait to get off so I can go home and see my baby. Yeah I got a love jones... So what?? I can't help it. I wonder why so many folks hate on it... You would think after being on this Earth for over 30 years that I would be use to hater comments... it's like folks are mad at me for being happy! Why??? I'm not hurting them, so why they so mad? Are they mad rappers? Hell I've been miserable enough to deserve to be happy! And in the end, that's all that counts... That's right I said it.... As long as I'm happy, I really don't care what Dick, Jane and Henry thinks... It's amazing that the minute you are happy, everyone else seems to walk away from your life... Hmmmm????? I guess they weren't true friends to begin with...

Some one left a comment on my blogger about the Ulitmate Love. And that I must look deep within myself to find the ultimate love. The Ultimate Love can only be found in GOD. And true I will have to look within myself to find the GOD in me. I don't think any man can be compared to GOD, so no I'm not looking for a man to be my Ultimate Love. That will come when I find myself spiritually. And while I think I'm in the right direction, sometimes it's hard. They also said that I will not have to tolerate any man's foolishness... Hmmm... I don't tolerate that now. Love and realtionships come in many shapes and forms. And to be honest, we are all grown... If you know someone and love them then you have to make a choose whether or not to accept them. There is no perfect situation or relationship. You deal with what only you can deal with. We can all pretend we live in glass houses and say what we will and will not choose to deal with certain things. In the end we are human and we often find ourselves dealing with things we said we would never deal with. But there is one thing I cannot deal with and that is lies. The people that hurt me the most were the people who practiced to deceive. And I've found that people will judge you until the end of time. I can't let those people destroy my happiness because in the end I'm the only person that has to deal with my life. No one else.

What is the epitome of an intimate relationship?

Is it sharing everything and anything? Is it being the best of friends? Is it loving a person unconditionally? Is it taking the boundaries of a normal relationship and stretching them to the breaking point? Is it thinking outside the box? Is it about the ultimate compatability? Is it never getting tired of a person? Is it about spending time and not thinking about the circumstances? Is it about individual preferences and not others' opinions? Who knows... When I figure all this out maybe I will elaborate more.

California is bracing itself for more blackouts...Well at least that's what the news is saying. Some say we are in our last days and times. I don't know what to believe. All I can do is live life for today and like it's my last day on this Earth. In the realm of life their are permanent fixtures. Like family and loved ones. And in the scheme of things, some things aren't worth the headache and heartache. Life, relationships and love comes in many shapes and forms. And a friend of mine always says you only live once. Not everyone is going to understand your lifestyle. Whether you are gay, straight, in a committed relationship, or in an open one... Who am I to say that you are weird or wrong? I suspect there are a lot of people out there dealing with all different types of situations. Life is not perfect. And while we all want the fairytale relationship, I'm beginning to realize that some things just aren't meant for certain people. I wonder what's meant for me?